Friday, 25 May 2012

Thursday, 24 May 2012

  • I'm not ready yet

    Currently the big things in my life are:

    1. Nuno breaking up with me for reasons which i cannot understand and therefore am having trouble even thinking of accepting bummed. We just had another talk last night. 
    2. Me getting a fantastic job offer which promises great future opportunities stunned.
    3. Nuno going to Brazil for a 2-week business trip soon... right when I feel we should be in the midst of sorting out thoughts sad
    4. Arranging details with my future employer regarding a training program in US. The process is really tedious. And i'm really afraid of how homesick and lonely i'll be when i'm there. Especially with the current hanging problems with Nuno bummed.
    5. Figuring out if I should just let go of things with Nuno and embrace the opportunity to fill my mind with traveling and getting to know people and processes in my new job. But i'm not ready yet. Because i cannot understand his reasons. I still feel it's worth fighting for bummed. I really do. I hope he won't hate me for it.
    6. Leaving my current job. I've been here 7 years come this June 7th. Emotional ties sad.
    7. A friend who hurt me. Ouch sad

    I'm hurting so much right now and yet i've got to force myself to rouse myself to be efficient while working on item 4. 

    My heart is broken and still breaking further. I... don't know the words to explain. To know he doesn't want to work on things, to have a friend hurt me, to have to brave loneliness, to have to brave a long and lonely travel training period, to leave the people i've been with most of my waking hours for 7 years. It's a painful gut wrenching combination. 

    Help me. 

Friday, 18 May 2012

  • Robina Hood!

    Today, we had archery as part of our team building activities. This year the department i'm working in has a plan to have team building every month instead of just one big event a year; this plan is courtesy of yours truly, in a bid to try to "wake up" the people. Life at work is sad when most people seem like cubicle zombies. 

    Archery was pretty fun. We did the boring thing of going to an indoor archery hall where everybody is lined up to shoot your own numbered target which are lined up with other targets at the same distance away from the people. But boring as it sounds, we did have fun happy. We were divided into teams and scores were announced per team instead of per player so I don't know how well I did but my team ranked 2 out of 4. I hit a bullseye once laughing but in typical me fashion it wasn't my own target! luckily it was the target besides mine where a fellow teammate was so it still counted.... somehow clueless. Oh and i was the first of the "lucky" few that bruised my inner left elbow. My own fault for being careless. 

    I hope the team building plans for the rest of the year continue on smoothly even if I'm not around. I'll miss most of these folks bummed

Tuesday, 15 May 2012

  • It's not what you're saying that is the problem, it's how you're saying it. 

Saturday, 12 May 2012

  • Reality bites

    I knew i'd been watching too much project runway and america's next top model when i could recognize most of the contestants during the all-stars shows silly.

    Anyway, i was watching america's next top model cycle 18 - british invasion, which in my opinion was really way way better than britain's next top model, and my goodness it was horrible to see Kelly Cutrone on the panel. PR maven indeed. She may be great at her job but from what i see of her on the show she is a nasty person. She maybe good at PR for others, but she certainly didn't do a good job at polishing her own image. I'm good with strong stern strict leaders that command respect; she isn't one of them.

    If this is the direction america's next top model is headed, i'm not watching it anymore. In fact for cycle 18, i watched till Louise Watts stormed off. Yes i do agree Louise could have been more respectful and less arrogant but i do not agree she deserved to be bullied by Kelly Cutrone. The cutting remarks and glares at certain moments were really too much. Louise is a gorgeous model who carries out her job effortlessly, all she needed was some instruction and guidance to be the top. C'mon she's so young! Plus she was certainly feeling a lot of stress. Perhaps being hard on her wasn't what she needed but a more understanding gentler mentor instead.

    I'm disgusted by Kelly Cutrone's behavior and by the fact tht she remained a judge for the season. I wish to the heavens that Louise Watts matures into a fine woman who proves to be way more respectable than Kelly Cutrone could ever be. Louise, wherever you are, i hope you learn to bloom from this situation and regain confidence in yourself.

    Oops. too much rambling abt cycle 18? silly I'm done! p.s. if you ever want to watch america's next top model, i recommend the earlier seasons.

     

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