This coming wkend, some exschoolmates and i were supposed to have a roadtrip. I was totally looking forward to it since we'd agreed to it several weeks back. Unfortunately the key players bailed out last Friday mostly due to work commitments. The thing is, sincerity is not always clearly noticed and it just irks me the way some ppl bail out with really shallow excuses. Especially the way the bail out was done nonchalantly by one of the gang. That one person's go or no go that is the fine line between making this trip work or not. I'm annoyed at this one person the most for the attitude this person took towards this trip although we got the commitment weeks ago. Annoyed because to me this person expected me to do everything and it felt like that the bail out was because this person was just not impressed by my efforts. Bah! Impressed?! Sheesh. I'm not your slave, dammit. I'm also annoyed at myself for not defining the rules and what is expected of whom, and for assuming this person whom i've known for a long time would know how to act like a friend instead of a <enter word here>. Sigh. Mismatched expectations ruins yet another situation.

So there goes my birthday roadtrip. I'm annoyed and disappointed, all in one bundle. I was really looking forward to spending time with these ppl coz i've not been as close with them in recent years. I guess i should've known to plan this roadtrip with a different bunch of friends who are a little closer. Oh well, once bitten, twice shy, i'll prolly not wanna consider roadtrip with this group again (heh, who knows, maybe they too think the same abt me). At least i've learnt something from this experience so it's not a total waste.

Meanwhile, since i've declined all other invites and plans for the wkend coz of this roadtrip tht isnt gonna happen, looks like i've got just days to fill up my wkend schedule. It's just disappointing to know I just can't depend on some people i counted as friends. I wish things were different.

 

recycling an old joke a friend re-posted on fb because it makes me laugh .

Pada suatu malam, 3 ekor pontianak sdg bertenggek diatas pokok sambil bergaduh tentang kehebatan masing-masing. Ketiga-tiga mengaku diri mereka hebat. Untuk menentukan siapa paling hebat, mereka cuba membuktikan kehebatan masing-masing.

Pontianak A terbang dgn sepantas kilat. 10 saat kemudian balik semula ke pokok tersebut. Kelihatan kesan-kesan darah di sekitar gigi Pontianak A.

Pontianak A: Korang nampak rumah tu
Pontianak B: Nampak!
Pontianak C: Nampak!
Pontianak A: Satu rumah tu habis aku kerjakan.

Pontianak B pula terbang dgn sepantas kilat. 5 saat kemudian balik semula ke pokok tersebut. Kelihatan ada darah bukan setakat pada gigi, malah pada keseluruhan mulut pontianak tersebut.

Pontianak B: Korang nampak kampung tu
Pontianak A: Nampak!
Pontianak C: Nampak!
Pontianak B: Satu kampung tu habis aku kerjakan.

Sejurus lepas itu, Pontianak C pula terbang lebih pantas berbanding Pontianak A dan B. Dalam masa 5 saat je dia kembali ke pokok tersebut. Kelihatan darah mengalir-ngalir bukan saje pada mulut, malah pada keseluruhan muka pontianak tersebut.

Pontianak C: Korang nampak tembok kat hujung sana tu
Pontianak A: Nampak!
Pontianak B: Nampak!
Pontianak C: Err... tadi aku tak nampak....

 

Dear Grandfather,
For all those times you've taken care of me, loved me, pampered me, indulged my every childish demand, I want to thank you. You left too soon. You left before I could show you how much I've grown up enough to realized the sacrifices you made for me. There are so many things I wish I could ask you about. You'll always be a great man in my mind.

Dear Daddy,
Happy Father's Day! Here's hoping that the Father's Day celebration with the extended family in Perth was a fun day. Somehow i bet the cousins wouldn't be able to settle for only a small celebration. The "leftovers" here are holding down the fort pretty well. So far we haven't destroyed the house or poisoned ourselves with bad cooking.... yet.....We've decided what sort of gift to get you but inevitably cannot decide on the exact model. Salary gap between your first and last kids is being an issue here since middle one has shrewdly decided to leave it to us to hash out the details with the excuse that she's in a different state. In my defense, he's had 7 years more than me to stuff his bank account. It's gonna be a good gift though. I'm sure you'll like this product no matter which model we get because it's something you used to be really keen in and it's time you got an upgrade.

Dear Uncle,
Happy Father's Day! I called Auntie today and had a long chat. She'll pass you my Father's Day greeting. It's the first time in years I'm not celebrating Father's Day with you. I miss you and Auntie much more than I'll ever verbally admit. You've both always treated me like a daughter and I'll always think of you as my second parents. I'm sorry I've been selfish; months have passed since I last dropped by to see how you and Auntie are doing, but it's not because you did anything wrong, instead it's just part of the moving on process for me. I'm glad both of you have not changed your attitudes towards me even as my relationship with you has dropped from what could have been to what it now is. From the bottom of my heart, I thank both of you for caring for me and showing me what family means.

Dear You,
There's this concept of "beautiful mistakes". It means that no matter how terrible a mistake is, it is valuable because it teaches us lessons. However, there are some lessons that should never ever be learnt. Some decisions should never have been made. Perhaps you think that fate has dealt with the issue kindly and that it should not think be thought of so negatively. I know you've got your justification for your reasons. You're entitled to your personal opinion. Know that you hold a lot of power and your decisions are honored by the ones who love you and trust you no matter how bad the decisions are. You'll always be loved. Happy Father's Day.